Dont do this ok? I know i have no right to ask you to do anything. This is your own business. But like what i said to you just now. Those tears that flow when i am with you . . There were for myself. Cos i feel my pain. . Unable to concentrate on my semester exams, have to settle dad's debt and with him keep advancing while i was together with you already . .Those tears . There were for myself.
The tears that flow just now were meant for you . It will be painful seeing someone you love slowing moving away from you. Spending time with others and not you. I feel your pain. And yet what you told me hurts deeper. "As long as you're happy. . " " when people bully you, tell me .. "
" When you feel troubled, find me .." What the FUCK.
Just fuck myself really. . I have nothing more to say. I dont deserve you. You are not my back up plan. Think for yourself and please ask me to fuck off from your life. I dont leave people. People leave me. And yet . . I left you. .Why didn't you held me tighter in the past?! Why didn't you try to understand further when i want you to? Why didn't you . . !!! So that i don't need to see the hurt you hide when you smile and ask me if i am okay for your care and concerns.
I am not going to do anything to decrease my guilty towards you.. or to make you feel any better. . At least, all i can do now. . is just hurt for you. Nothing more. .
Meng hao
be happy
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