Because you gave me no words, I am less painful. Very.
No need to feel sorry cos i feel sorry too for making you feel this way.
No need to say thank you cos i feel thankful too for all sweet bitter memories that colors my dull life . . ^^
Talked to mum and these days i realized i talked much lesser compared to the past. . . I listened to my mum and my sister more. . Those were times where I can talk and talk non-stop even the tiniest insignificant stuff . . Talk to make ppl understand me more. .so that i can understand them more in same way ^^ I am an expressive person. And i think i still am now. Just lesser after those fuckin HELL days ... Fuck it.
But KM, I thank you. If not for you, I wouldn't be here where i am standing now :)
But i really do still hope people would enjoy talking with me and i would make their day great just as they are make mine's . . . ^^
I hope these days end. .as in i am tired repaying your debts, dad. . I didn't even have the chance to touch and even know what fuck you have spent on. . Just have to keep hearing from my beloved aunties that you asked how much from them . . asking me not to worry and all . .
I thought it is not the right time for me to work. As in i thought it is only time for me to study. .not concentrating on finding money.
I know you owe me nothing, brother. .and you didnt make a promise to me too, but give me a call at least? . . . HAhahahaha. . let me know at least you're okay :) I pray hard that you are.
But deep down, I know you'll be doing good. You are tough. We are tough. We are from the same training ground and you went through longer and tougher ^^ miss you, brother. . Dont you worry about your sis here. Hope you will reply my message. Or did you receive it ? ==''
Had a eleven hours sleep today !!!! Wow. . . How long has it been since i really sleep like this . . I was holding on to the phone.. but to no avail .. I couldnt even feel it vibrate ==
You wont know that you are good at something you dont know. Good one =)
Dont be afraid :)
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