Emo

Some day I feel everything at once
Other days I feel nothing at all

I don't know what's worse
Drowning beneath the waves
Or dying of thirst.

Peaceful day at home ~

Peaceful day at home ... :)

My room is all dark and cozy. With the super cooling weather outside and sounds of the rain..

Just had a chalet with my poly classmates. And i am glad that i stayed over with them. It has been long since i  spent crazy time with them like that. I missed that place too. It was a good chalet. Clean and comfy. Good to catch up with most of my classmates :)

Mr Ho told me i will regret getting into SIT. Chem Engineering is tough. Much tougher than i will imagine it to be. Cos the Maths will b tough. He told me it will be tougher than NTU and NUS for the science courses that i have applied for. When i heard about all these, deep down i was afraid. I was afraid that things go back to A Levels. Where I need to study so hard. But in the ends, my hard work didnt pay me off at all. All those sleepless nights and stacks and stacks of notes. Its like i cant catch up. I am able to get it during lessons but not during exams.

Haiz. I am quite worried :(

But i will not choose the easy path - Adv Dip. It was an easier one. Much easier one.  But since i know what i want to do in future. I would prefer a much in-depth knowledge so that i could prepare myself well to deliver my knowledge to others. A full time cert. I at least worth that. I believe myself so.

I dont know what this path will bring me to. Another chapter of my life. Will be starting soon.

Jiayou sw !!!

Worried :(

Sick of being good

When you realized those ppl who come to you only when they need help... even if from those ppl you thought you can be close with.. those friends i thought they will not take advantage of you.

I hate those who make use of my kindness. I hate that they didnt know they hurted you too. Or that they knew. But they did it intentionally or unintentionally. Because their benefits just overtakes whatever you are for them and whatever you had done.

Mayb I am just sick of myself  being too good to ppl..

My alone time and day ~

My throat hurts even when I am not talking. I guess I will b losing my voice soon.. Headache comes accompanied with my eye's poor health. I overdid it =(

During these days I missed dad's medi prescription. I don't even have to go see a doc. Lol all the way to go, dad! :)

I will settle my student pass and my burning computer today. Days passed. Yet no news from NTU and NUS. So be it, Sit. I will clear my poly loans before applying for another loan for my uni studies. Around 10K... I don't want to depend on my uncle too much. He is good enuf to offer me his money as the last resort when I couldnt get a loan. I am lucky. Really lucky to get to continue my studies and have my family to support me during my ups and downs :)

I will try to work lesser. So that I can work harder for my studies. I missed studying very hard. I have loved study. I missed myself being able to study so hard till I got myself well known for it. Lol

Jiayou Sw! :)

4 April 2013 ~

Time flies... My poly year three passed just like a lightning bolt.. With all those rushing assignments and quizzes and fyp and work... It was all so cloudy to me as time passed so fast. It was a good one :)
I will miss my poly life :)

- the big space that used to be at t17 where i always look up to see the sky
- the green paths
- the shortcuts i take between my work and my lessons
- the yummie food

My year one and two was worst where i could hardly catch my breath. Year two was the hardest. In fact, I enjoyed most my year one and year three :) Thats when i learnt how to take things at a slower pace or so.

Lets see how things will go for me after this :)

 After the China trip, i did felt myself different when it comes to making decisions. I realized that life is how you see it. You are the one who is responsible to either make your life interesting or dull. Adventurous or mundane!! And i am always grateful to all the stuff that colors my life. Grateful to things that i have and have not :)  You walk your own path. No one can actually walk your path for you. Unless they chose to walk their own path along with you :)

My mum didnt say much about my studies after this. My first bro did discuss about our future and sch fees with us. No news from second bro :(

I am becoming more adult than i have ever thought myself to be ready.