What should I do

What should I do to live freely again 

What should I do so that I can be happy again 

Happy for the longest time I've had 

In fact it was his gaze that day.. that gaze that brought me back.

The longing gaze that couldn't bear me to leave him. Or at least that's what i felt. Then I asked if I can go to him. He said "OK". I felt both of our hearts rejoiced. It felt lighter. 

.............

But then again. now Why?

How?