Goodbye. Now u know why I don't say this
sw|wm
Friday, March 17, 2017
Hang in there sw!!!
Client postponed the meeting again. After two hours of waiting.. Oh well. I walked in the rain again.. Sucks - I am wearing white. Refreshing if no one is watching..
Yeah!!! F them all!!!!
Integrity!!! It will be my main principle in my job
I will bite and strive through!!! Tough but I will hang on!!!
Do not ever take my kindness as my weakness. Do not see me as a timid one.
I dont know
Hunger for my own defined success!!! I will be a cute Wolf Argh!
Yup
Stay strong, sw !!! Hang in there, sw !! Be a strong lady and your own man!! Screw all the man. Screw every single of them.. Do not ever rely on anyone but YOURSELF!!! Everyone is selfish including me. Human are such disgusting creatures.. Its always about gaining.. What is the point of me being so ever transparent when they put up layers for themselves??!!! I will Guard myself well. I will never be as open, transparent and naked to anyone anymore. I have went back to the state before I meet you... Where I thought being strong is the only option I have... and thats I ever will be.. I SHALL BE!!!
hang in there sw|ws dont cry
Monday, March 13, 2017
Sunday, March 12, 2017
Those that Lived A Butterfly's Life
Why do someone need a blog?
Thanks to you, I didn't needed one for so so long.. To pour my daily thoughts or daily updates. Yet here I am again. The only place where I can just tear down my mask, my inner thoughts..
Ive graduated for the past 9 months now. Been in AIA for the past 3 months. This is my 4th month. Time flies. I've learnt so much.. so so much .. I have learnt that Life Isn't About Roses and Butterflies the SUPER hard way. Someone that like Roses and Butterflies like me frequently think that Life had always that way or that People just fail to see or search for them. Open their Eyes and they can find their own Butterflies.. :) Is that so?
Things been so hard for me. Yet I feel myself stronger. I no longer feel emotion. I have forgot how to be happy and sad for the longest time know. Work is all that i had. Friends and family that I can pour my shit to? None. Why? Because in my line of career, I can't complain.. And its not professional to do so. So just suck it and Life is like this. They chose not to be a Butterflies. Butterflies are really rare outside. Really very rare. In my line of work, ppl reveal their inner self to me.. Omg, so UGLY. So shitty..Full of shits and fake ppl out there.. Why? Why chose to pollute ? Im fighting hard and strong not to be polluted. So the irony is Those that Lived a Butterfly life, NEVER LIVES LIFE. So what is your choice? Fuck all of them.. fuck all these shit.
The only emotion i felt strongest is Anger. Anger pushes me forward alot. I shall remain a Butterfly and I will Fly as High.. When tiny little sadness came creeping in, I don't allow myself to wallop in Self Pity. I realized that I don't cry as bad anymore. I'm like wow. My tears have dried up afterall. But Pain is always there with me. Especially yesterday. Everything seems like breaking apart.. my dearest zm,..work, my sister, My PR application gone wrong cos my sister book it wrongly? I can feel myself slowly breaking...And I cried so hard last night. Oh god till now I felt like crying... Im just tired, I guess. Very very very tired...inside me is always crying..
To zm:
You were one of the rare butterflies.. :) Thanks for everything up till now.. I'm sorry. I am so so sorry that I fell apart and I fell out of love from you. Sorry for the Pain that you were going thru..I hope one day U will no longer feel it.. I do still miss you very much as a Friend. You were my Best Friend and my Lover true to my own soul, my heart and my body.. afterall :) please take care. Stay happy and healthy always always.. :)
Thanks to you, I didn't needed one for so so long.. To pour my daily thoughts or daily updates. Yet here I am again. The only place where I can just tear down my mask, my inner thoughts..
Ive graduated for the past 9 months now. Been in AIA for the past 3 months. This is my 4th month. Time flies. I've learnt so much.. so so much .. I have learnt that Life Isn't About Roses and Butterflies the SUPER hard way. Someone that like Roses and Butterflies like me frequently think that Life had always that way or that People just fail to see or search for them. Open their Eyes and they can find their own Butterflies.. :) Is that so?
Things been so hard for me. Yet I feel myself stronger. I no longer feel emotion. I have forgot how to be happy and sad for the longest time know. Work is all that i had. Friends and family that I can pour my shit to? None. Why? Because in my line of career, I can't complain.. And its not professional to do so. So just suck it and Life is like this. They chose not to be a Butterflies. Butterflies are really rare outside. Really very rare. In my line of work, ppl reveal their inner self to me.. Omg, so UGLY. So shitty..Full of shits and fake ppl out there.. Why? Why chose to pollute ? Im fighting hard and strong not to be polluted. So the irony is Those that Lived a Butterfly life, NEVER LIVES LIFE. So what is your choice? Fuck all of them.. fuck all these shit.
The only emotion i felt strongest is Anger. Anger pushes me forward alot. I shall remain a Butterfly and I will Fly as High.. When tiny little sadness came creeping in, I don't allow myself to wallop in Self Pity. I realized that I don't cry as bad anymore. I'm like wow. My tears have dried up afterall. But Pain is always there with me. Especially yesterday. Everything seems like breaking apart.. my dearest zm,..work, my sister, My PR application gone wrong cos my sister book it wrongly? I can feel myself slowly breaking...And I cried so hard last night. Oh god till now I felt like crying... Im just tired, I guess. Very very very tired...inside me is always crying..
To zm:
You were one of the rare butterflies.. :) Thanks for everything up till now.. I'm sorry. I am so so sorry that I fell apart and I fell out of love from you. Sorry for the Pain that you were going thru..I hope one day U will no longer feel it.. I do still miss you very much as a Friend. You were my Best Friend and my Lover true to my own soul, my heart and my body.. afterall :) please take care. Stay happy and healthy always always.. :)
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