Longings . . .

I longed for the day where i can just be my old self.
I longed for the day where i don't have to force food down to my throat.
I longed for the day where i can find back all my reasons for my existence.
I longed and i longed . . .

For the day where everything just ends and i can rest there peacefully.

Don't worry.Everything is fine. Everything's great.
Cos when you can do it, why can't i ?
I guess my facade is too perfect. . .
Till you are blind to know. Or to realize those weren't jokes at all.

Deep down i know it still bleeds

cos i don't even want them to recover :)

And i'm fine with it

I miss you