Virtual emotionally attraction . . .

Few days ago. . I received a call that i was accepted into Singapore Polytechnic for Materials Science. I was rejected by Nanyang and Ngee Ann Polytechnic though. . This is the only choice i have.But this is not the subject that i don't like either. .I had always love Chemistry. So, that's how it goes.Applied for everything including Tuition Grant and Tuition Fee Loan. So, i've got to stuck here to repay my debts in future. . .As i thought, i can't take the easy way out in Malaysia afterall. It's good that I didn't put much hope in it. I'm too tired to think so much now. At least, i can still study. I had always love studying. I love to learn. . Although i get them all in the hard way, i won't hate studies :)

Haiz. . . Somehow i was reverted back. Too scared to be too happy now. Or shall i ask what is happy now :) ? Too scared to hope now. And basically, too scared to have emotions. Since the results weren't good when i took it all out. When i gave it my all, I received them all back. So, let's keep them half . . . it's okay even if you get them half of them back :)
I'm not as courageous as my popo afterall.

I'm still having nightmares. Since you can't make them go, might as well treat them as a part of your life :) . In there, somehow, all my emotions flow. I was so scared in it. So scared that when i wake up, still i was.I dreamt all these all over and over again. It's really unfair to show me all these now, really. . So scared that tears flow so much in it when i don't dare to run. The thing that i don't understand is that Since it's this tormenting, why that i would still prefer that i don't wake up at all. Also, the thing that i can still do is to question to the validity when i wake up right? :)

I'm growing up, i guess. . You have to listen to truths . They are all harsh ones. Even still, i accept them. This feeling wasn't nice though. It is as if i'm leaving a lot things behind. . I hate this. If can, i don't to give anything up. . I won't :)

School is starting on the 19th. .Kind of lazy . .I had been enjoying my days at home watching loads of good animes. LOL
I'll study as if i were dying. Guess i'll take up Japanese too XD
See me shine . . . And i hope i will. .


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