Hey. . .

I know you didn't lie. All this while you didn't. What you said in the past and now is always true. You have said it a lot of times.
I'm just a coward who is too afraid of rejection to see anything except what those around me say.
So, don't take all the blame on yourself.

It was pain. Too much to be bearable. I took sleeping pills and alot alot alcohol. I just don't want to wake up anymore. But ended up waking up in the middle of the nights and days. I wonder how much does it really takes to die. Really must eat up a whole bottle? And i thought if you're going through all this for so long, i'm very sorry. I really don't feel like waking up at all. It's tearing me up waking up every morning, realising you're not here anymore.

You have the warmest hand i've ever want to touch. You have the most comfortable shoulder that i think i want to die for it. When you said, "you are my everything. ", it has became my reason of existence. Yet, you're in so much pain. Please, don't ask me to let go. I won't do that.

When i said whatever i have said below, i don't even know whether i can do it.

Just one word from you. One word will do. And i'll do whatever it takes to come back to you. Remember that. You're not alone. Not suffering alone. I'll be there. Don't get lonely. Don't think that you have lost me. Cos i never wanted to leave your side no matter what i have said.