Rocher ~

I am starting to write here alot these days...hmm.. good or bad? I dun care ~ XD

I am not really stressed these days...After loads of things happened, i slowed down a little...I pushed myself too much in the past i guess..since secondary sch!!! I don't want to be so stressful and to be in that state of tired again..scary =x

Mostly, i am more of sad though.. I won't deny that. I live in sadness more than happiness. That's something i chose though..I can choose to be happy..Yet, i didn't.. I am learning though..How do you make others happy when you are not? I realized good or bad things that come across in your life all depends on how you see them :)

My life was not that good since childhood. .Let's learn from zero ..Learn how to be happy.. ^^

In life, there's always options.. Don't leave yourself with none. That's what my mum told me :)

Stay positive !

I have frequent back attacks this year.. But at least i can walk and do the things i like :)

My heart beating fast but it reminds me that i am still breathing... :)

I dropped my phone inside the toilet bowl.. but i become more careful with my phone now..lol

I lost my wallet plus all the documents inside....it will definitely serve as my lifetime reminder ==

Maybe a new wallet? :D

My results dropped...but i learn a lot this semester and i still look forward to the next :)

Although my heart still ache every time i thought of my father but i dun live in denial...

I have to settle my brother's shop house..but i will learn something in dealing with a land property. And most important , I learn to make decisions...

School fees. At least i dun burden my parents or brother much... :)

My testings and journals.. It's not about the results that are waiting for me. But it is the process of learning..the methods that i have learnt along the way! Things are pilling up but i will finish them one by one :)

I don't want to see what's beyond my line of vision. Because with that i learn better to cope with the present and treasure them more ! Live with no regrets ! I believe in my heart. My intuitions. My feelings. Myself :)

I didn't get to see the moon lately... Hmmm... Here's my prayer :

"God, please show guidance and love to those whom i hold dear, all my family members and my friends that i come across in my life.. Grant the world peace.."

Sounds stupid..but it has been my prayer for the last 11 years..lol.. Are you ready to die? Ask yourself this.. And you will see life differently. You learn how to live when you learn how to die :)

Is it because of the rocher that i feel so Up now ==

Maintain this feeling !!!

DAd, wake up !!!