Thursday, June 23, 2011

sulky day...

For me, it wasn't really hard not crying. . . but i chose to cry whenever i feel like to.
I was not allowed to cry in my past. Cause things that come after that would be much worse. Hmmm . . my dad doesn't like us to cry. I wont elaborate further as i don't want to remember them =) I just want to keep a nice image of my father in my heart. What for you bear vengeance over your own parent? If weren't for them, you won't be who you are now ...

It has been long since there's no one at home. . I can play songs out loud and enjoy some peaceful time alone :D
It feels nice, wearing your pajamas, hair held loose, watching over the sunrise/ sunset and the beautiful clouds by my room window. I used to do that every day when i was at my old room. . The scenery was nicer than the one i am having now :D

Hmmm . . It was hard forcing yourself to accept and to learn things that you don't like. It is fucking tiring. Till i don't even have the strength to talk about it. To sprain my brain muscles. . Cos i cannot do anything about it. LOL

And it will starts all over again when the term starts. . I still have 7 weeks more to go till the next semester. . Is it the wrong course for me? I don't know. All i know is that i am fortunate to be given an opportunity to study compared to those who didn't get to. Yea . . I tell myself this every time. . .

Did a wrong gesture today .. Damn it!!! ==

i miss you popo :(

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