I just want to be myself. . . .

Will after expressing here makes you feel better?
I don't know but i don't "feel" today . . . As in i don't know what i feel today. .
Not my usual self today again after so much effort fighting them . .
It's easier to force myself to do stuff if you had some reasons for them . . .
But is good or bad in a way?

Just that really. . .I am tired.
Somehow, i really went thru HELL thoughout the past three months. . And when i weigh myself just now. I found that i lose 6 kg in three months. LOL
If death doesn't mean anything to you anymore. . . As if you would understand.
You would know what real tired means . . .

I hate that word.

But i felt better after having a singing session with huiwen just now. Just wanted so much to shout my lungs out today. Shout till all these tiredness are gone. Till i won't feel so tired to have smile so much these days :)

And now here

i say please . . .