Don't read. Please.


Am i given the privilege to say I'm tired?I'm in pain? Can i blame?

I'm . . just don't know anymore.
I know it's still far to go. Actually not that far. . It's just 60 days more. I'm just a coward. I'm not as strong as you. You didn't went around shouting for help. I did. Too much of a pain that can't be contained. Is that so? I'm just useless. Worthless.
Pain

Stress building up these few days. Things seems tougher than they always have been. My relatives are coming down this weekend. But why now? I miss you guys alot. But not now. I can't. Just spare me.

I don't know what happen to me today. And I know i'm spouting ruibbish here. So, please don't read on. I just want to empty out. If not, I won't be able to do my work later. Lacking of sleep makes one lose her composure. You can say that. That's also what i will think of myself today.

Just 12 more days to A level. And I definitely don't want to lose it. I can't. Please.

I don't know it bothers me so much. Stop appearing in my dreams. I wanted to stop asking you Why?' . . coz I don't know that myself.

I want to be stronger. More capable. There are things that i want to protect. Much more than my life. Although i may sound naive, and i might end up being protected, I want to protect you. And i end up hurting you.


take care