One of my classmates told me this today while i was queuing buying food for my friends at fc3 during the lesson break..
" Because you looked always-stress."
It was hurt to be told something like that. Like i don't realise it :(. That I am stressed or sad all the time. I would say i have none better to do except sad or stressed.. It appears to be like that..It is getting to be like that.
It feels as if i don't know how to become happy anymore :(
It has been awhile already since i feel happy. I longed for it. I longed for the heaviness in my heart to be gone. I longed for the day i can smile and laugh from my heart. How the fuck that can be done? I yearned and longed.
This blog is my only personal space i have. I don't know how to answer others when they comfort me. Becoz i don't want to make them feel bad/troubled of not knowing how to make me feel better. And because when i am not feeling any better, my expressions betrayed me. And I am tired of caring wht my answers might make them feel. Or that how they would think of me.
At this point of time, it would be great to feel that it is okay to cry. It will be good to have someone to tell me it's really okay. It will be great to cry and just cry till i won't cry again.. Till i sad until i sian !
Miss you, SW ! Please be back ! :(
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