tadaima ~

Ah. . . reached singapore finally ^^ Reached at 7 plus =.=
The bus broke down and i woke up to find myself in the middle of the road. It took nealy 2 hours to move again. Haha

First Stop

Reached Sunway on the 11th Dec and stayed for two weeks at dear's place. Too long didn't see her, i shall say. When i first saw her, i was filled with an unexplainable blissful feeling that she is in my life. I learnt about alot of stuff throughout my stay there. Somehow, knowing things just make my feeling grows. That's all i can say. I really enjoyed myself this time. I mean it whole- heartedly ^^ I had a really good rest after my A levels. That is what i call a REAL holiday. LOL
No lecture notes. No tutorials. I can just lay flat inside the room, reading my book for the whole day. Not bored at all. I came across alot of her friends this time. It's very different from my friends here. They are more playful and open? I can learn alot from their world which is kind of totally different from mine. I'm not saying my life superior than them or what. But i can see things from their vision of life. Different. It's somehow make me more certain of my choices that i can take after getting my results.

Thanks guys for your warm hospitality and concern ^^

I managed to spend some time with my dear. That's what matters most to me. Managed to know her a bit more. Managed to move slightly further into her world. Managed to do what i set out to do there. Thankful. Satisfied.

I sensed it all. I know even before i read your blog. ^^ Sorry for not realising it earlier. I know i come for too long and imposed some disturbance in your life. But that is what i intended. So, you don't have to apologize and take up all the blame. I intend to get hurt and learn how real things go with you since I really reaching all out to you ^^ I'm the one who should say sorry for making you feel this way. I don't know. I'm still not used to expressing all out to you and I'm feeling guilty of saying too much or complaining too much to you. You can feel right? I really wanted you to know how i feel. I'm going to be selfish. So, don't apologize. You can do things the way you want them. But don't push me away. Don't stop me from staying by your side. Don't stop me from caring and worrying for you. I am a bother, I know. But that is how i wanted to love you. LOL

Please understand ^^ Sorry, too. I don't like saying all these things to you. It's going to make you and me think. Thanks for saying all out in your blog. But like what you said, hope things better ^^


Second stop

Reached Ipoh around 4 plus. . Curi curi went and met up with shuyun and yook woon before informing dad to fetch me up. That was Shuyun's idea =.= But i really grateful that i have take this opportunity to meet up with them though it's kinda risky. LOL
I found my old self by being with them. Haha. . laughing and smiling so truely ^^ You would surely be suprised seeing me there. Adding cantonese vulgarities in almost every sentences. Those words just came out from my mouth and even i don't realize myself saying them. My old self. LOL. . . funny. . Thanks guys ^^ Let's meet the same way everytime i come back ! I'll post up some pic that we took soon . . .

Dad was fine. In fact, everyone seems fine afer my grandmother passed away. This is my first time going back to my popo's house without having her there physically. I missed her so much so much. . I sensed her inside. I still dont like the feeling of offering her joss sticks. Haiz. . . .
My mum has gone to taiwan to visit my new-born nephew. It'll be my turn soon. Let's see how things go then. ^^

As usual, i did all the cleanings before i come back here. The floor was ridiculously dusty and the toilets are unexpectedly. . . . . . I don't want to make you feel like i'm living in a ghost house. So, yeah. . . My dad is demanding as always. . .Anyway, parents just don't practise what they have taught us when we are young. LOL

Anyway, let's see how my life goes after this. Take care and all the best to everyone ^^
Merry Christmas and happy 2010 ^^

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