Today i am feeling like dead fish

I reached Singapore around 3.40am and went to school straight after finished packing. I felt like floating the whole day XD I don't like to say the word "tired' though coz it'll make it worse ^^

My return this time was really a memorable one. This was how it went . . .

I reached Ipoh around 5.30am. My dad brought us for dim sum. Although i don't feel like eating, i helped myself a little? I reached home around 6am and went straight into my beloved room and found my mum on my bed. She woke up and i hugged her ^^ She was a bit different compared to the last time i saw her. Lol. She looked abit young? Coz she had a Botox injection a month ago at Taiwan. We started chatting from 6am till 8 something. Actually, i was feeling like wanting to lie down. I wondered whether she is tired.. talking non stop and giving us every detail about what happen at Taiwan and how things going on with her and my new-to-be sister in law. My dad came down and the flame between them suddenly ignited =.=

It was my fault for not explaining things properly. Haiz... My mum wanted to bring me for Korean cuisine but my dad wanted to bring me to East Ocean instead.Both of them didn't explain to each other and expected everyone to follow each other's plan.It was a stupid quarrel. I'm really sorry.

We ended up following dad's plan. Actually,i don't mind what to have for dinner. I would even have seafood for dinner if you guys can sit down peacefully and have a dinner together. This was not the mainhighlight.

I was shocked this time. i didn't know that my grandma's health had deteriorated so badly. She can't see well now. She can't see me now. Everytime i talked to her, i moved close to her face and put her hands on my face. My heart scattered each time i looked her. I saw her scooping "air" when she thought that her spoon was full of rice when we were having dinner. My sister and i fed her for each meal we had together. She kept asking me to switch on the lights. Haiz...My heart really hurt. Yet , she was able to laugh and smile with us, showing no worries on her face. I salute her really. I wondered if she was scared each time she land her foot on the floor. *cries

I had alot of food this time i went back. I think i ate food worth for a week for my return this time. Ah...But it was really delicious. Durians...curry mee...etc etc...

I found myself kept complaining to my mum these two days. Everytime huiwen touch me, or beat me,i will go to my mum.. " Ah mi...you see ah mun..." Then my mum will say like "Ah mun...why bully your sister?..." I complained even for the tiniest thing XD I was really happy. i don't know why i enjoyed doing that but i like my mum pampering me. Haha.. I missed her too much i guess...back here. No. In fact everyone ^^

I realized that everyone was growing old. Haiz... I wanted to go back to Malaysia to work after i complete my studies in Singapore. My mum did not encourage me to do so .She said dad will disturb me. She asked me not to worry about them. It was not the case. I don't know how to explain to them that i wanted to be there for them whenever they need me. Just wanted to be near them. I know it will not do much good for me if i stayed in Malaysia. Next thing to consider is if i were to stay in Singapore to work, how about her? I know she don't mind. But it's my turn to say I mind. Really. I don't know. You want it like this? lol... Let me end my A level peacefully and SUCCESSFULLY first ^^

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Today is dear's first day working... i wonder how is she coping ? ^^ good luck ya ~

As for me,today's Maths paper was rather do-able? Hope can score well with dear's wishes ^^

I gotta start work now T-T