I will b waiting for you

I 've never felt nothing in the world like this before

Now I'm missing you

and I'm wishing you would come back through my door

Why did you have to go?

You could have let me know

so now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance

With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand

And all my tears they keep runnin' down my face

Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it's a lie what you keep inside

This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don't know what else I can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I find it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do

I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)

You gotta be feeling crazy

How can you walk away(When)

Everything stays the same

I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back

Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that

No Why can't you look at me?

You're still in love with me

Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just start all over again

Get it back to the way it was

If you give me a chance

I can love you right

But you're telling me it won't be enough

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don't know what else I can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I find it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do

I'll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside

That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you

Baby I will wait for you

If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it's just ain't true

eI really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do

I'll wait for you


I'll be waiting...

Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow.

Things slightly better i guess. . . I got back into my momentum recently and I'm glad about that. I passed my General Paper ^^ That's something like "Pengajian Am" in Malaysia and if you fail that paper, you have to retain one more year and retake A level next year. That is really the worst exspecially if you did very well for other subjects for A level.

The weather is very soothing today, making one very comfortable for the whole day ^^ It rained the whole morning and the breeze was cool. I wonder if it's the same in Malaysia.

Well, it's gonna be time soon that i will have to close my connections with the world. LOL A level is just in 6 weeks time and Dammit i'm here blogging XD . Just wanted to share some happy things after my previous emo post ^^

I was kinda shock yesterday. Oh well, i didn't scream out ^^ I just stared at the post very long . Huiwen saw it and put one hand onto her mouth and got up from her seat. Haha. . It was nothing actually. but somehow, I felt happy. It has been long since i felt this way. ^^ I'm really very happy.


( some kind of quiz in facebook )

" Sw :: What about your results? "

" KM :: It's the same ^^ "


Somehow, she asked me in a direct and also indirect way . Of course ,she doesn't have to spill out everything for me to understand. I will take that as a promise between you and me ~ a promise for our future. Thank you very much. Really thank you very much. i wonder how she felt after saying all those to me. Embarassed , i guess. I would if i were the one to ask XD. I wonder if she regretted it. You don't have to really carry it out, you know. Just don't want to add this to your problems. I'm just happy that you have the intention. That's already very enough for me. Another thing is it has made me feel that i have a stronger foundation in my life ~ A stronger reason for me to do better in A levels although i don't know why. ^^

I really miss her very much and this damn weather makes it much worse especially when i am alone walking in the streets. Just wanted to let her know how how much i really did. Haha. .

I'm doing all the practices for all the subjects that i need. Everyday, chemistry, geography, maths and physics have all become my daily meals. LOL. Just hope all these really digest in. Ittadakimasu ~ LOL . . I'll stop all my tuitions at the end of this month.I'll keep working hard till A levels. I'll aim for all Bs although that's a bit too high for me to aim. But if you don't dream big, might as well don't dream at all ^^ So, let's be a little naive .

Huiwen fell sick today. . Haiz. . It's has been a long time since she fell ill. LOL . It is really stupid to fall sick now. You can't afford it. But I just can't make her to eat medicine =.= Haiz. . .

Ah. . . I really looking forward in seeing you soon. . but before that, let's work hard. Really hard.

I am not tired. I am not sleepy at all.

Heavy. . .

Well... These few days i really had a wonderful and relaxing time at home. My study pace was slow and i guessed i have rested enough to cover up for what i have lost during my prelims. It has been a long time since i slept for more than 6 hours.That's really nice ^^

However, reality sure is harsh. . . harsh enough to crush my hopes to score better for A levels. Yes, I got back my papers today. I know it'll be saddening but i really put in alot of effort this time. And the questions weren't that hard. I just don't know what to do anymore. And yea. . When you don't know what you're doing, just do it blindly. And i'll blindly continue to work hard. I don't even know what is the purpose of it. Yea. . I also don't know what i'm doing with my life. Just live blindly and that'll be enough, i guess. One thing that has comforted me the most is there's someone who has given me her word in helping me to make choices in future. I don't like to make choices, you see. It's because i don't have any preference in life. That's either a good or bad thing in life. Good is that i'll live a happy life. Bad is people will take advantage of it. Haha. . I don't really care though. But keep your word ok. I do really hope that you're serious about me depending on you to help me make choices in future. I won't regret it and i won't blame you whatever it is. I promised.

I am shocked to be receiving birthday presents today since it's already mid- September. Haha. . I got a cool black pencil case and a booklet from Huiwen's friend. And to my suprise, the librarian aunty got us chocolates and keychains . Thanks really, everyone. I really don't think that i deserve all these. But it does help me to lighten my heavy feeling today ^^

Sorry for this emo post ok. My results are just too sucks. LOL

Take care everyone ^^

Gambatte SW =.=

Look forward. . .

It's good to have something to look forward huh. . .^^At least, your life would be made much easier thinking about the good things in future. I'm looking forward for what's dinner tonite XD

Finally, prelims over. . .I'm really glad and this time i think i really did put much effort in it. Now what awaits me is the results that i would be receiving next week when school reopens. I didn't put much hope though. I know the results will remain the same. Haha.. Just give a pass for every subject ok. And i'll be very grateful. Just don't let me feel that all my efforts are wasted.

I'll continue to work hard though ^^ I'm looking forward when A level ends. . when i finally can say out the word "tired". . "sien". . .out loud everyday. I shall lead a meaningless life for a while then. LOL
Let's work hard everyone. Look forward to good things that will happen soon.

Not much to write . . Huiwen got a big doggie plush toy form her classmates. She looked happy though showing me her doggie although she keep complaining that she doen't like it. It is about the size of my nephew? Or something like that. Haha. . not as good to hug as Ah bao though. Alas, no one will snatch ah bao from me in my middle of sleeeping. Ha !

I miss home very much. . i know it's contradicting for me to say this because at the same time, i'm scared of going back. . Things would not go the way you wanted it you see. Not always. But it's enough to make your life miserable. I wanted to go back to attend my grandma's birthday dinner. I've skipped her birthday dinner last year due to the Promotional Exams and i don't want to skip it this year. Since i can afford to go back, why can't I ? But my brother. . . .Okay i understand that it's good to go back once i have settled everything. Birthday is just a celebration huh. . Plus,the bus fare has gone much expensive than before T_T I might as well go back after my A levels. Haiz. . . .Sorry ah po. . I'll be back soon.


To those who are working hard. Pace yourselves ok. Look forward ^^


I'm coming soon. Wait

Birthday 2009 ^^

Time flies. . . I turned into 19 finally. My last teenage year ^^

What can i say. . .Although it is the first time i'm celebrating my birthday during my exams, it is not a bad one afterall. Thing's slowing down now as my exams will be finally be over next week. Physic will be my last paper. It is scary when i come to think that the next paper would be A level. Ah. . .what an energy-draining month. . No more coffee for a few more weeks ^^

I am very happy this year. Everyone seems to remember ^^ I received alot of wishes from my friends and my facebook was flooded with birthday messages too. . Some of my friends from Ipoh even called me. I am really touched. Thanks guys. . Thanks for giving me energy when i need them so much especially during this period ^^

I received alot this year. Too much i would say . .

my birthday cake ^^ sinfully delicious

can see the layers? the first layer is chocolate mousse, followed by cake and

biscuit layer dipped in latte.

my bro bought me this ^^

my sister's

kuma chan that i received yesterday from HL

I don't remember tellling her that i always wanted a bear.

I don't know how she knew. I'm kinda touched.^^

i had honey dew pudding when the clock stricked 12am last saturday.

My beloved brother brought us to a korean restaurant yesterday to have a feast. Look at the table. It's really full just like in the korean movies. The food was exotic ! Bimimbap. . I love the kimchi soup with rice ^^ the bulgogi was delicious too ( the one inside the grill ). We had some glutinous rice wine before we left. Just 7% alcohol content. It's soothing. . aromatic and sweet. Just too nice XD I'm very happy as all of us enjoyed it. It has been a long time since i had such fulfilling meal ^^

I am just one lucky and blissful child eh? Both of my brothers really take good care of us since we're born. A kind of family that everyone would wish for.

I don't know. But is it because of the simplistic thinking of mine that everyone seems want to take advantage of it ?Just how can they wonder that i can be that "understanding and tolerating". Just how can they think that i am really that "kind". An "ok" to everything. When i really say it is fine, have you ever considered it really was?

And yet, i am writting all these here like a coward who doesn't really want to face them.

disgusting

Today i am . . . tired?

Dead tired

Is all when you don't know that you are ;

Is all when you don't want to use your brain anymore ;

Is all when you don't even feel like eating ;

Is all when you don't want to answer any more questions ;

Is all when you feel like you'll collapse anytime if you keep on sitting any longer ;

Is all when you feel numb to each feeling you received ;

Is all when you don't even care to ask why or how ;

Is all when you wanted to turn and just run away ;

Is all when you wanted to have a long peace rest throughout the eternity ;

Is all when you wanted to be the most selfish person on earth ;

Is all when you wanted to say that you can't take it anymore ;

Is all when you wanted to say " I want. . . "

I'm just . . .a little. . tired, i guess.



All i want is just a big hug from you

Today i am made to realize

Ah. .Today, I have started my own study break at home already XD The official day is next monday. That means that we don't have to go to school until Prelims. I have not been feeling well for the past few days ^^ It's not H1N1 although it's getting serious in Singapore. The whole family is sick except Ah Man. Want to write a big word "GENG" for her already. Not a cough is heard from her although surrounded by so many bacteria XD

My brother made "steamed orange" for us.It did not taste good coz it's very bitter for we need to finish up the skin also. To my suprise, it's really effective ^^. . I cough less at night and my throat felt better. Well, things have started and this is really the last lapse of my life. What i mean is i won't be working so hard in studies after this. After A levels. But there is no gauge how hard is hard huh? I got motivated after i came across a mail sent by mum. Let's share it :

If they haven't think that they are unlucky, how dare you say you are?

If you think you are not earning enough, then what about her?

If they are not giving up, what makes you think that you have right to do so?

If you think you are working hard enough, then what is this?

If they are not afraid, why do you have to? to trivial things?!

If you think life is unfair, Is it fair to her?

Aih. . . sorry for such an emotional post. It's just that i have been hoping for more and complaning alot ^^ and this makes me realised it.

My life motto will be : "Life is not just to maximise your own pleasure, live to make other's live as pleasurable as well"

Let's smile more and look into the brighter side, appreciating what you already have and live life the fullest ^^

i think i will be disconected from the world for a while ^^ Till then

stay strong