When living became so bitter to me...

I hate the sound of my own crying....So helpless and useless..I hate it!!!!

What am i going to do?? If SIT is not a local uni, then don't claim yourself as one. Where international students like me are not eligible for the tuition grant !! Not only that I am not even eligible for any loans from Posb banks or other banks !!! Just because i am not a Singaporean or PR.

But before all these, your website stated otherwise!! It never mentioned that i cannot !!! I even called up and  i obtained positive answer. But what now? Just right after i opened up my enrollment package, you told me international students all not eligible for any financial aids! Not only that !! You need me to send you my bank statement to demonstrate that i have at least 1.5 times the annual school fees for the first year. That is like what. $60K?? WTF seriously... I dont know what am i going to do seriously.. I really dont know..

Another thing in hand is my Tuition Grant bond. I have to put in another sum of money so that the bank could freeze it since SIT is not a consider a local uni. So that i could finish my degree studies before i serve the bond. That is like what. Another $90K??? Wtf... Then why claimed as a local uni?

I am no longer a student pass holder. Then what am i supposed to do??

Whatever the website says and whatever the person who picked up my calls said wasn't even creditable. All give me different answers. You gave me the nice to hear answers rather than the right ones.

I seriously dont feel like living anymore. I dont know if my uncle is willing to help me. But then. This is just too much for me to absorb.

And my bro just said it to my face. Asked me to prepare to pack things to go back to ipoh if i tmr dont get the right information and help that i need.

I dont feel like living when living means so hard