My return to hometown

Hmm this trip home didn't meant much for me.. The birthday celebration was a disaster. I not used to be a mc or entertainer in front of so many ppl. Sucky I think. Total of almost 200 ppl. But dead tired. My house was filled with ppl and I had to walk alot, carrying stuff and have to walk from my hse to my grandma's hse. But I did have a lot of good food! ;D

Hmmm I did think about my grandma and my dad too. Where they used to be able to participate in these events too.  I Did helped mum massage her leg. Omg. Swollen shit. Both legs.She never massage ever since she fell that day at my sg house :(( haiz

But then. These times are good times for me to think and figure out. What do I want? Where do I want to be? Where do I want to go? What will happen after my graduation? No one knows.

Or mayb I am just getting lazy. Or too afraid to get out of my comfort zone.

Damn boring at home. Somehow. I wanna go swim. I wanna go watch movie too. Holidays ending. School starting soon :(

Why