From my first nephew till the second one... It has been years i held on this responsibility.. Because it is something that i have already committed...this heavy responsibility...
Sometimes...I feel bad for feeling this way at all...But when times like this..My ah sou flying to UK for 2 weeks...soon will be followed by my brother for the next two weeks to Shanghai...and although the maid is coming...She has no experience at all...do you think you can trust her to take care of TWO babies at the same time??? Also at the same time like this...I am fucking weak and sick...
I have my assignments pilling up ...I cannot even go work for these following weeks..My bank account keep depreciating... Have you guys give it a thought?? Did you guys do the same things as me when you were at my age?? Why don't you guys wash the piles of clothes? Why don't you guys wash the dishes after you guys use it??? Why you guys just don't fill up the water ??
Every morning, the kick always come..I need to breathe for awhile..Rest for a while before i wake up ...I will end up being all so tired every morning...every morning i dragged myself out of the bed..I cannot even go run and relax...I feel like i cannot even breathe sometimes ! I cannot do the thing i like when i feel like it !
Ah sou flying off tonite...and i don't know how things will go...But all i know now is i am all so tired.. I want to stop taking care of my nephews...I want to feel free from these commitments...I am not even attached! Not to mention married !
Because i am someone who will not dump my responsibilities that i have already committed earlier!!!
Guess that i am really tired today... :(
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