Tired

It was really tired sometimes. . That's why i'd rather go empty. . i go machine.

It was painful to feel. I dont dare to. I dont want to feel anything.

It was a great release last night. . When you ask me which part pressures me the most.

I cant even find the answer out myself. I dont even know. Too weak. . I've still have a damn long way to go . How am i supposed to cope when i cant even handle things like this. But really glad that you understood. You were there. And it was the greatest comfort for me. Thanks =)

It was really fucking tired . . fucking tired when you have to tell yourself "I can do it" while you feel so damn torn inside.

It was another really fucking tired and fucking pain when you have to tell yourself : "You cannot." no matter how much you crave, yearn and long inside.

I have to wake up

when i don't want to