DO u know?

You know?

No matter how much you disappoint me.. no matter how much you make me feel sad and casted far away from you. No matter how much I am pissed at you...

I would still check my phones to see if you will try to explain things till I can accept them..I would still find ways so that we both are at the same page..
I would still thought of you so much when I'm making or doing things for you. Even refilling water for you.

Your cheeky face. Your face. The face of the man I couldn't believed that i have loved so much.

No eye see at myself.  /_\



 

How much do u see? How much do u feel?

It's been long since we argued this big... :( 

My heart breaks along with the pillow I threw at you, do u know that? Those frustrations in me and u keep not getting it. It hurts. It pains me. 

I'm really sorry tht it turned out to be like that. When u just didn't do much wrong but just being urself.  

 

             

                         Sad day. 

Argued with a second dear friend due to him again. Gosh. Why?

Somehow. I do not understand how come they weigh relationship or friendships so .....Does it really mean so little to them? Did they spare a thought for me before each words that come out from their mouth? How many ppl will actually take the effort to sustain true friendships? I do. 

I do not believe each of us have the right to say or judge anyone. As i have always am. I choose to accept ppl as who they are. Be it good or bad. They are still who they are. My sister is still my sister no matter what. My friends are still my friends. He is always who he is.. 

I will choose not to explain so much..

"How can a man die better than facing fearful odds, for the ashes of his fathers and the temples of his gods" 

 ~ Horatius 

Movie marathon :))

           My first movie marathon 

It was perfect. 

Perfect date I had ever have with you. Thx you very much for it... :)))

Oh I love you so much Baby!! 

The Secret To Staying With Someone Forever Is To Keep Falling In Love (And Never Stop) ...

1. We’re cursed to forever draw comparisons between new experiences and memories. It's NORMAL.

Just as much as it is advantageous, having the ability to prop two things side by side, compare them and analyze them, is also what damns us to a life riddled with sadness and disappointment.

Accepting that the lows in life are necessary for the highs isn’t built into our nature.

We are creatures who never want to lose. We never want to lessen our holdings, our place in the world and social circles.

We are individuals who fear loss. When we take a look at experiences we’ve had and emotions that we’ve felt, we compare them to what it is that we are feeling at the present moment.

While memories allow us to look back fondly, they simultaneously lessen the pleasure that we receive from what we are now experiencing.

2. Because we hate losing, we love the idea of always rising higher, always getting more, experiencing something novel and, above all else, improving. That's why we are on the LOSING team!

We’re in a constant competition with ourselves trying to outdo our pleasant moments in life with more pleasant and more memorable ones.

All of this, however, is an illusion – a trick that we play on ourselves. And it’s this constant pursuit of that higher high that will make you feel as if you’re constantly on the losing team.

3. To win in life and to form a successful partnership, you have to learn to appreciate the uniqueness of every moment you live. Every moment you spend with the person you love is a moment you will NEVER get back.

No two seconds in your life will ever be the same. No two moments will ever taste exactly like another, nor will you ever again live this very minute of your life.

We all live on borrowed time. The person you are this very second is not the person you were the last.

4. The time that you have with the one you love is time that you ought to cherish, regardless of how it makes you feel compared to how other moments in your life made you feel. 

What you once felt is gone. You can’t live in past, allowing fossilized emotions to influence your decisions. What you are feeling right now is the only time in your life that you will feel exactly that way.

This moment is unique. It isn’t duplicable and therefore it should be appreciated.

Because we take each moment for granted, we lose sight of the fact that love is a living thing that needs to be nurtured.

5. The secret to loving, lasting relationships is simple. You need to fall in love with the person all over again and do so as often as possible.

We all remember that moment when we come to realize that this stranger we met not too long ago holds great value to us, the moment we realize that we care about this person as much as we care about ourselves.

This magical moment will almost certainly never be as magical as it was the first time around.

The first time will always be the most intense of times if only because of that extra stimulant.

This, however, does not mean that falling in love over and over again with the same individual isn’t possible.

6. All it means is that falling in love with this person will never feel the same as it did the first time around. It will feel different each and every time and it will be for different reasons, under different conditions and circumstances.

What you cannot allow yourself to do, however, is to spend time comparing the way that you are now feeling to the way that you felt initially when Cupid struck his arrow.

Doing so will only nullify the emotions that you should be feeling. The past will drown out the present if you don’t learn to love the moment for what it is alone and nothing else.

Moved to tears for the first time ~

I'm moved to tears. The vibrating happiness in me was beyond words for the past few hours and I have been asking myself over and over. 

"Am I dreaming?" 

He told me I'm not.. :)

Thx you so much. Gosh. I couldn't believe this day would come and I didn't know it meant so much to me when my tears flow down. I didn't know how seriously I was in love with you. I didn't know.  

I was crying all the way home.. Gosh. 

It became so real to me now. Mixture of feelings. Happy and so scared.. I do clearly understand risks now. And I thank you for taking those risks with me. May we both endure all of them together.. :)

"I fear oblivion,” he said without a moment's pause. “I fear it like the proverbial blind man who's afraid of the dark.” ~ Fault In Our Stars 

Losing hope

You're tired of thinking...

I'm tired of asking... Waiting ... Hoping... 

I'm losing hope.