Emo

Some day I feel everything at once
Other days I feel nothing at all

I don't know what's worse
Drowning beneath the waves
Or dying of thirst.

Peaceful day at home ~

Peaceful day at home ... :)

My room is all dark and cozy. With the super cooling weather outside and sounds of the rain..

Just had a chalet with my poly classmates. And i am glad that i stayed over with them. It has been long since i  spent crazy time with them like that. I missed that place too. It was a good chalet. Clean and comfy. Good to catch up with most of my classmates :)

Mr Ho told me i will regret getting into SIT. Chem Engineering is tough. Much tougher than i will imagine it to be. Cos the Maths will b tough. He told me it will be tougher than NTU and NUS for the science courses that i have applied for. When i heard about all these, deep down i was afraid. I was afraid that things go back to A Levels. Where I need to study so hard. But in the ends, my hard work didnt pay me off at all. All those sleepless nights and stacks and stacks of notes. Its like i cant catch up. I am able to get it during lessons but not during exams.

Haiz. I am quite worried :(

But i will not choose the easy path - Adv Dip. It was an easier one. Much easier one.  But since i know what i want to do in future. I would prefer a much in-depth knowledge so that i could prepare myself well to deliver my knowledge to others. A full time cert. I at least worth that. I believe myself so.

I dont know what this path will bring me to. Another chapter of my life. Will be starting soon.

Jiayou sw !!!

Worried :(

Sick of being good

When you realized those ppl who come to you only when they need help... even if from those ppl you thought you can be close with.. those friends i thought they will not take advantage of you.

I hate those who make use of my kindness. I hate that they didnt know they hurted you too. Or that they knew. But they did it intentionally or unintentionally. Because their benefits just overtakes whatever you are for them and whatever you had done.

Mayb I am just sick of myself  being too good to ppl..

My alone time and day ~

My throat hurts even when I am not talking. I guess I will b losing my voice soon.. Headache comes accompanied with my eye's poor health. I overdid it =(

During these days I missed dad's medi prescription. I don't even have to go see a doc. Lol all the way to go, dad! :)

I will settle my student pass and my burning computer today. Days passed. Yet no news from NTU and NUS. So be it, Sit. I will clear my poly loans before applying for another loan for my uni studies. Around 10K... I don't want to depend on my uncle too much. He is good enuf to offer me his money as the last resort when I couldnt get a loan. I am lucky. Really lucky to get to continue my studies and have my family to support me during my ups and downs :)

I will try to work lesser. So that I can work harder for my studies. I missed studying very hard. I have loved study. I missed myself being able to study so hard till I got myself well known for it. Lol

Jiayou Sw! :)

4 April 2013 ~

Time flies... My poly year three passed just like a lightning bolt.. With all those rushing assignments and quizzes and fyp and work... It was all so cloudy to me as time passed so fast. It was a good one :)
I will miss my poly life :)

- the big space that used to be at t17 where i always look up to see the sky
- the green paths
- the shortcuts i take between my work and my lessons
- the yummie food

My year one and two was worst where i could hardly catch my breath. Year two was the hardest. In fact, I enjoyed most my year one and year three :) Thats when i learnt how to take things at a slower pace or so.

Lets see how things will go for me after this :)

 After the China trip, i did felt myself different when it comes to making decisions. I realized that life is how you see it. You are the one who is responsible to either make your life interesting or dull. Adventurous or mundane!! And i am always grateful to all the stuff that colors my life. Grateful to things that i have and have not :)  You walk your own path. No one can actually walk your path for you. Unless they chose to walk their own path along with you :)

My mum didnt say much about my studies after this. My first bro did discuss about our future and sch fees with us. No news from second bro :(

I am becoming more adult than i have ever thought myself to be ready.

Dont know if i would be using this in future or not :)

User can boot into Windows but not Mac

To backup from Mac
Go to Computer >> Select E:/ (Mac de) >> Users >> ( User de name) >> You'll see the files

To reformat Mac side using the partition inside
1. Have to connect to Internet
2. Restart press option
3. Go to Recovery Hd
4. Follow instruction (click agree or so)
5. Go to Disk Utility>> Select Macintosh (Journaled) >> Erase
All DATA will be gone  

6. At the Disk Utility Screen again, Select Reformat Disk >> Select Macintosh
7. After finish reformating.
8. Boot into Mac and Windows. See can or not
8. Update Mac OS
9. Have to download iTunes / iGarage or any other that missing from Apple.
10. Configure.
 

Coming to an end ~

My last lap finally.. This is my second time applying to universities... And i dont have good feelings with either of the results that might turn out to be. I will apply all and see how :)  I am eager to learn about my turning point in life. Life is going to be much tough for me if i am able to get in. I am no smart girl. I wont be able to take stress too. Alot of ppl told me about this. And i hate to hear it very much. My emotions and feelings easily readable from my actions and facial expressions.

A friend of mine told me from his life experience that i should learn how to fake a little in front of people. Do not share the problem with the same circle or group of friends. Share it with another group of friends so that you wont get affected much even if trust was neglected. Assumptions being made too much. I cared too much. I acted too real and helpful. People will take me for granted.." You do not know how to protect yourself at all... "

I do not like what he said at all. He lost trust in people. Although it seemed that he has his point. But i didnt want to lose trust in people and my friends. It was hurtful, yes and they didnt even know about it. I have learnt that certain things really just dont breakeven.

My previous weeks was really torturing.. Sucked up all my mental and physical energy. I broke down easily with any slightest provocation. When the term starts, everything comes in a rush. The first week of school was rather depressing already from the backstab incident. Top it off with fyp report, assignments from each of the modules... online quizes, lab tests.. and at the same time, i have to make decisions on two job offers.. Have to weigh alot of things. Not only that, I continued to work. I worked for more than 10 hours at times. A day, I worked like a full timer. I worked for 8 hours. Plus going for classes and lectures on the same day. All these... hmmmm... i wont say much. These are the choices i made :)

I have just ended three tests last week.. And Phew.. I finally able to breathe better just yesterday after my fyp presentation :)

That was the best presentation that i have given so far. Or mayb that the panel of tired lecturers made me felt calm. I wasnt nervous at all for the first time standing in front. I was feeling bad for them for sitting in for all presentations for the whole day. I wasnt given a leading position for quite some time. It was a rather good feeling and i am happy to work with them. My fyp was smooth sailing. I am very lucky comparing with other groups.. Like my mum said, the process is always hard.. Till you're out from your training ground :)

I was much stronger in the past. And learning this. Not to say that i am weak now. But I am going to be much much stronger. I will learn to be as independent as before.

Only a few more weeks left. Only a few papers left to mark the end of my poly life. I am going to miss them so much. So much :)

Coming to an end ~