Greyish butterfly. . .

As graceful as a butterfly... I just saw one in my room after my bath ..

It lingered on my hair and my hair was dripping wet. . I tried to lead it out. . But it just flew away ... Still flying in my room. .

Is it you , grandmother? You have always wear clothes of that color.....

I thought of you today . . Missed you ! =(

All the way to go, sin =D

I feel like going to the beach . . .

T__T

I am tired. . . Why do i keep saying those forbidden words. . .

HAHA. . Still have more to go, sw. . . more to come.

If you can't even handle all these tiny matter . . just small tests and all . .Really . .All these are just small bits of what you will be tasting in the future. There are much bitter stuff lying ahead. .

And you're just 21 . . . Life's has more for you . . You have to learn to be strong. Tough !!!!

I wasn't this way at all. I am not used to it. Hate it. I have to really stop complaining...

There are no shortcuts for you, sw !!!! Take one step at a time. Just keep going. . Just like that. And when you look back, you'll realize how far you have gone. Saying and doing is all different though . . =(

Will you be able to do it, sw? Will you be able to????

I am have been really down. . All these negative feelings.. with all these negative happenings..

I wonder how. Would they react when they found out. Huiwen, you make sure you FALL HARD. And you LEARN WELL. I dont know how to help you anymore. .

Thank you for being there . . . I feel guilty for liking you =(

My words . . like i'll go " puff " when you want the circle to disappear ..will make me feel better after saying it. . And yea. .saying and being able to do it is another thing as well. .

Sorry if i have hurt you =(

Studies first !!! Still have a little bit more to go !!! Hang on !!!!

I can do it !!!!

=(

Things are always harder for me.

I dont like to feel this at all.

sw, get the thing off your mind and concentrate on your studies ...

Please... concentrate on your studies.. T.T

down.. =(

Staying positive?

I always try to say positive things to myself and others. . Does it really help???

When deep inside, you keep screaming for help. Keep screaming. and keep on screaming. .

And then, you realize you have to stop somehow. Cause help will never come. The one who will help you will only be yourself.

You have to keep moving on. Keep you mind, heart and body cool . And continue. And continue.

Till another time when you cannot take it anymore. And your heart sends you the signal to scream again. . .so that you know. You have "feelings" somehow. You know it. And when you try to deny it, your heart punches you hard in.

sometimes i cry

the instant i hear your voice

sulky day...

For me, it wasn't really hard not crying. . . but i chose to cry whenever i feel like to.

I was not allowed to cry in my past. Cause things that come after that would be much worse. Hmmm . . my dad doesn't like us to cry. I wont elaborate further as i don't want to remember them =) I just want to keep a nice image of my father in my heart. What for you bear vengeance over your own parent? If weren't for them, you won't be who you are now ...

It has been long since there's no one at home. . I can play songs out loud and enjoy some peaceful time alone :D

It feels nice, wearing your pajamas, hair held loose, watching over the sunrise/ sunset and the beautiful clouds by my room window. I used to do that every day when i was at my old room. . The scenery was nicer than the one i am having now :D

Hmmm . . It was hard forcing yourself to accept and to learn things that you don't like. It is fucking tiring. Till i don't even have the strength to talk about it. To sprain my brain muscles. . Cos i cannot do anything about it. LOL

And it will starts all over again when the term starts. . I still have 7 weeks more to go till the next semester. . Is it the wrong course for me? I don't know. All i know is that i am fortunate to be given an opportunity to study compared to those who didn't get to. Yea . . I tell myself this every time. . .

Did a wrong gesture today .. Damn it!!! ==

i miss you popo :(

hmm. . exams coming, holidays going . . .

Hmm . holidays ending soon D:

A whole new learning lay ahead for me to step into. . A tiring one. .

It's hard to learn how to enjoy your studies. . I keep encouraging myself to Accept and Absorb.

I can do it !!!

Money matters can rest as for now. But i still feel not really secure. . Hmmm . . I keep telling myself, the purpose and objectives i am here now. .To study and not to find work and money ==

Study well now. Earn more later. No matter how hard. I must preserve !!!

Phew . .back didnt really attacked me cruelly these days. . touchwood*

Let's look forward of what i am going to become =)

And i shall visit this blog post again, reminiscing sweet bitter colorful . . wonderful memories of what i have went through . .

Sam's coming. .Hmmm. . One year plus eh? LOL

covet