Help..Please

Just read his post... And almost only the last sentence of his blog isn't about the pain and discomfort that he is facing... I almost cried. Why are u always sick? And so sick?

This helpless feeling of mine. No one could really understand too. Not even him. Cos just as I told him before, you make the ppl ard you suffer too from worrying and this feeling of helpless :(((((
Please take really good care of your health and body!! Please eat at proper timing! Sleep and wake up at proper timing!! Don't game so much :(

It hurts.. It hurts so badly. When you went out with someone without telling me again :(
When your first reaction is to tell me that was long ago. But we are together that time. You weren't even apologizing to me at first. I was hurt. Very hurt. And each time when i know it, my heart was slicing every moment I thought of it... How can I build that trust that I finally have it for you? :(((((
How am I not going to be paranoid again?? God. Help me. Help!!

Can you not be healthy or fit for us? I just want you to be healthy. Not even good-looking.
dear God, if you are listening to my wishes every night and day, pls grant him good health. Good sleeps every night. No headaches. No diarrhea. No backpains!!!

:(

The Last Day of 2014 ....

Lets see... year 2014 is coming to an end soon. What have I learnt? What have i achieved?

This year was almost a changing point for me. Indeed. It turned better.. :)) 

In terms of personal growth, I guess that's it. The almost growing fear to grow up into a proper adult. In which i hope I would be a proper and responsible one. 

I coped better with studies in my year Three.. with better professors and notes too. It definitely helped abundance with proper study methods too and time management. I didn't miss a single lecture recordings even though I miss all those lessons. And I am really proud of myself. Let's keep this spirit up till next year !!! I am taking a part time job too. Really wish I can cope with my studies and work and at the same time manage to save up! 

Towards the August, and I do not actually know how too. Things slowly getting better for me and him as our relationship stabled up. After that One Piece ship. Hahaha...It took me too long to reach here.. T___T But I am so happy and glad that things are slowly working out!! Let's make it a forever, shall we? Though sometimes, I do not dare to imagine one. It looks tough.. :( 

He keeps falling sick..How is he able to really take care of me? What my mum said is true. How much will it be left for him to take care of you? When his body took so much from him? Sigh....I told mum that it can't be helped. Cos I had fallen for him and mum said that it would be my choice. 

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ah... Its nice to be home alone at times.. :)

My 2015 resolution:

1. Push my GPA as high as possible. May It reach at least 3.0 before i graduate !!!! :( 

2. Settle current debts by May 2015. 

3. Save up to at least half my sch fees by the end of 2015.

4. A new phone. Iphone 5s? Iphone 6?

5. Complete my internship smoothly during the May holidays. 

6. Towards the end of 2015, may my solo FYP commences smoothly.

7. Argue lesser with him. Whenever u want to start argue, you tell him and yourself that you love him instead. 

Lastly. Regret nothing.. Laugh harder.. Live happily.. Be positive and positive will come to you!! :) 

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Ah...the last day of 2014..

You did good to me, 2014... :) 

May 2015 a better and a beautiful year to come!!! ^^

30 min walk :))))

I write so that I won't forget them.. :))

It was a really nice walk date with ya..I love walks with you... :)) And yeah...ya right. It was my dreams came true.. I was stun and dumbfounded for 3 secs.. My heart skipped a beat when he mentioned and talked about our future.. It was a first time. And it sent me almost butterflies. I was joyous when he mentioned buying a house together.. :))) Let's make that wish come true ..ok? :)))

I will work hard too. 

~ 30 Dec 2014 

The Best Xmas Ever !!!! 25 Dec 2014 ~

Dear me... :)

Whenever you are lost.. and feeling alone and down to Earth, I wish that once you read this post, you would gain back whatever faith and strength to move on from the sadness and the negativity that you would be feeling. I know it hurts. Coz if it doesn't hurt this much, it just means you didn't love this man as much... :) 

He did thought of you in his heart. You are just as important to him as he is to YOU. You are important to me, Baby. It's just that he is not that an expressive as a person and he is somehow born with it..... :/ And you have do your part in accepting him as who he is :) 

Whatever he do or said has no intention in hurting you for he has came to love you as much too.. :)

And deep down, you know it too.. :)  

From the efforts he made.. his dedications of songs. Go take a look at all the doggies that he has bought for you. He thought of you whenever he bought each of them.. and I bet his heart is smiling just as you are :)

When he is watching The Hobbit with you, he intentionally ordered food (even though he is unwell and not feeling like eating) , so that he won't spoil the mood. He did it all for you. He kissed your palm when he is watching you in pain. 

And today, inside the cinema while watching Paddington, he went out the cinema just to get you a cup of Hot Milo, Cos he scared that you are too cold. Remember how touched you felt? 

In fact, my eyes are tearing up while writing this post.. Gosh.. you made me cried twice out of happiness..   

He might not be the man of your dreams. He might just not be perfect . Not every single time. Not every single moment. But isn't him there for you each time? Isn't him putting effort and changing for you? Isn't him doing his best and making things work out? :) 

 He's a human too and treat him like one! Don't make him suffer from your NEGATIVITY and look forward creating much beautiful memories and happiness with him just IN THE NEXT MOMENT!! Give him his own deserved space ! You need it too!! Have strong trust in him! And he will returned the trust for you too! He will Love you back too! :) 

It was the eve of the Christmas and he has finally fulfilled his promise and brought me to the long-awaited To-gather cafe.. It feel as if I am the most blissful girl today.

The menu looks so pretty that I wanna bring back home ... >.<

Mango latte and Mango Breezer for X'mas! 

Corn Chowder Soup of the Day ~

He looked like the most handsome man on Earth today and i had a hard time breathing... Love you so much, my love :)) 

Pork Gordon Bleu and loads of good foodies ~! :D

Be happy! 

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:)

To-gather cafe !! :D

:))

And after that, we went home and took a nap! I like having naps with him. Sleeping just by his side. Watching him.. :)) Followed by the Paddinton movie..  I like seeing his face when he's playing Dota... Blissful to be by his side to write this post :)) 

I went to hug him too.. Gosh.. He didnt know all these inside me...

Its a great Christmas for me. So far the best X'mas that I have had so far... :))))

What's there more to ask , Sw? :) 

Remember this. Bad times will pass! He loves you very much that he aches as much as you do!

Don't sabotage all these !!!! 

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But ya somehow haven't really... for someone at ur age :(

Is it cos I didn't know you enough? Didn't know you fully?


Sigh. Have you ever thought carefully for your future? Our future? :(

Why are u like always wasting time? :(

Don't.

A day to remember :))))

I do not know how to express my thxfulness having you by my side ...
Its not that i am not happy .. Its just me being sad for not being able to spend more time with ya :(

"We both like dancing...", you said.
We both was like hugging each other and spinning away inside the kitchen... lol

Deep down...I was smiling in my heart. We accidentally danced for the first time. :)))
It felt nice, you know? It felt like we having our own world of our own..I felt as if I was like a princess in a fairytale. :))

Thx you for telling me. Thx u so so much for expressing to me. It was the first time we have been together so long that you told me this without me prompting. You have no idea how high your song recording makes my heart flies.

" U shud know i love u de".

I will remember this till the day I die.

Love you too, my dear. Till the day i die .. :)

~31 Nov 2014 & 1 Nov 2014