11th

Good or bad.

To me, it was beautiful.

Our feelings are beautiful. 

You did not come. 

Why again and again

What am I going to do? Sitting down here and cry? Then how am I going to do it? I didn't want to cry at home. I don't have a room for myself today. 

All those sadness and disappointments... 

All those love and hate... 

It's all tearing me apart. 

A part of me wished hard. Wished that you would come and explain to me. Promise me that things will not be the same. And that I will not experience these pains as much anymore.. 

A part of me just tell me that you won't. It's me that told him that I couldn't take it and that I needed the break. But why am I breaking up myself apart now? Why do I still miss? How can both pains weigh almost the same? The pain from the hurt u inflict and the pain from my own heart. 

Why.

All lies.

I always will.

I don't love you. But I always will ~

Focus on the good!

When you are negative, u tend to focus on the bad things. But in result, u lost focus on what are the good things tht you are surrounded with. 

I wasn't really able to enjoy his presence while keep on focusing on the bad things. But after the talk, I feel better letting him know and started to feel grateful having him by my side and be by his side :)

Thank you for telling that you will improve and slowly won't let me feel that way again :) 

Lately, it has been really nice and good :)

。。。你真的懂事 了吗？