You are the one.

Another day passes by, I'm dreamin' of you, 

And though I know it might be just a dream, dreams come true, 

Somewhere, somehow i'll find you even though it takes all of 

My life 

And when I finally do 

I know inside my heart  

That there could be no doubt, I knew it from the start 

you are the one 

That I've been searching for my whole life through, 

you are the one that I've been looking for 

And now that i have found you, 

I'll never let you go, I'll hold you in my arms 

You are the one 

Another night spent alone 

I'm lying in the dark  

I don't know your name 

But I know your voice sings to my heart 

A sweet melody, a symphony of love 

I know that come one day  

A time for you and me 

To finally be together, cause I know we're meant to be 

Forever's a meaningless word 

Even though you're here with me 

Here by my side, here in my heart 

I'll never let you go I'll hold you in my arms 

you are the one that I've been searching for my whole life through

that I've been looking for and now that I have found you 

I'll never let you go, I'll hold you in my arms  

Cause you are the one, you are the one

After the past few days..

I just read his blog...and the pain haunts...

I do not understand why someone can affect me so deeply. I can cry and laugh in a matter in a matter of seconds. All these while you have been like this, i keep all these words in myself so that i could at least try not to bring you down. Either when you have asked me always if i am being happy with you. You didn't even want to read my blog cos you said you scare it might affect you. 

It's not about being a good or bad bf. Its about being the right. This answer will always be left unsure.. and time will prove it to me. If i say you're good, then i wouldn't be keep on complaining to you. Like you said, maybe some ppl cannot handle the truth.

 When you said this, it struck me deep down too. It's like you didn't admit that you are in the wrong in not letting me know beforehand. Not letting me know is much worst. Really much worst when my institution is right. I know it's nothing. But it means something to me. You mean something to me. That's why i care. Can you understand?

I asked for your forgiveness for my past actions. But as for this, u just didn't. A word of sorry didn't matter much once things have happened.

For the past few days, I have been emotionless. I have been thinking cos i do not want to pressure you. You seems to always be in pressure when being with me. That was always the only thing you say about when being with me. You won't tell me that you're happy or so... That's what i have been thinking. Up till now, I am still so afraid of getting back together with you.

It hurts.. It hurts when you are not even able to give me an answer if you have faith or don't have faith in us.

I do not understand why. Why is it just so hard lately for the both of us.

I erased the tweet in the morning hoping that you wouldn't see. But in the end, you did. I really do not want to pressure you further. It hurts when you deemed all these as pressure. And like you say, its the truth. Can you give me a sweeter truth than this hurtful one? Is there any?? It hurts..I appreciate the effort you make and I am very grateful about it...Then why is it that you are not able to answer me?

It's not that i do not understand that you couldn't sleep and have insomnia. It's just i would rather you not to keep your brain cell active over the com or phone. Cos I would like you to rest and recover. Since you didn't sleep for days...

As my friend dropped me off at Orchard, I was a little drench from the rain. It was only 1pm. I knew you were working. I only app you ard 2pm for you didnt app me. I waited you for around two hours. Inside Cold Storage. That's how i get my cough. I gave up waiting when my body started to feel heavy and giddy.

I would want to accompany you to go and collect the hot spring water for ur mum. At least someone to keep you accompanied. Someone for you to hold on to when you need. Although sometimes i know... my accompany is not needed...

First post of 2014 ~

It is just ten more days to sch restarting soon.. SOmehow, a little phobia grew in me. That I am afraid to study things that i do not understand. Haiz. But as time passes, I am proud of myself to be able to come this far :)

Year 2013 passed. This is was better than the last. I did grow up alot too. I made rough decisions on uni studies. Managed to do planning on my financial scheme aka bank loans, loans from uncle.. Plus its not that easy to apply uni and all too. Not with those sudden notice that I got into Ntu or wrong information from those ignorant officers on the phone telling me different thing on my study pass and tuition grant. I was at the verge of working instead of study. I coped all of them hard. Real HARD.

But I am blessed with my family and friends around me and I am really grateful for it.. :)))

I do not have much in my 2014 resolutions.

1. Study better.
2. Save more money.
3. Exercise more.
4. Help myself more before I can help others.
5. Lessen the burden over my shoulders by not keeping them stiff always.
6. Learn to breathe.
7. Cry lesser.
8. Care-free.
9. Love harder.
10. Be stronger. Be better. (in person)
11. Plan ahead after uni (What I want to do?)
12. Plan my early savings ahead. (Business is not my thing.. :( )
13. Call mum and other aunties more often.

Let's do this!!!  :)

Spoken and unspoken words

Have u ever felt like u can stone at one spot for a very very long time?

Thats how i felt just awhile ago. After that awful disagreement I have had always with either myself or the other person. It hurts deep when someone so close to you cannot seem to understand. We both saying the different thing on the phone. Till I do not know how to explain anymore. Why? You are someone that supposed to understand by now. It was always so pain.

I stood there motionless when i saw my polka dot fish that i have brought back laying dead. I killed it accidentally when i was pouring out other fishes. I don't what to say. What to feel...

R.I.P polka dot.
I am really really sorry. I am so so sorry !!! :(

Why every time when things go so smooth spoilt always by spoken and unspoken words?

I really did enjoyed myself so much at the pasir ris farm and walk..

I lose it too.. I will be crazy one day.. thinking what feeling i shud be feeling.

HOW TO INSERT PAGE NUMBERS STARTING FROM SPECIFIC PAGE !!!!

HOW TO INSERT PAGE NUMBERS STARTING FROM SPECIFIC PAGE !!!!

1.  Insert page break STARTING from the specific page you want to start number. 

2. Insert page number. (The pages should be numbered and the above "section" also will be numbered)

2. "Uncheck link to previous" (Design section under Header and Footer tab) at the bottom of the last page of the section that you DO NOT WANT THEM TO BE NUMBERED.   

3. The  last step will be "delete" the page number at the bottom of the LAST PAGE OF THAT SECTION.   

In the end, you should see that only the specific pages to be page-numbered 1 and onwards and not the section above (Cover Page, Table of Content, etc...) to be numbered !!!!

Refer to the youtube video above to see if my steps are wrong. 

9-10-2013

Uni update....

It has been two months i started uni... They keep saying it's far more different and I prepared my mindset where things will b much more like A levels... Getting hard to cope and catch up and all..

It was tiring.. Energy draining. With every paper i took.. After the paper, I feel my brain and body energy was drained away. Uni is really tough. I have had my Continual Assessments (CA) and left with one more to go. It was my first time having exams at uni. Their test seems to be small but their weightage is far too much to screw with the paper. :(  All so tough !!! :(

Or is it that i had it too easy for my past education systems at Malaysia and Singapore?

Two killer modules for me. Thermodynamics and Mechanics of Materials.. While both my friends seem to be coping okay with it. I find it really too tough for me to understand. It was stressed for me when both of them aim to graduate with a good degree ( upper class cert ) . As for how I am doing now, I think i can only pass with a normal degree. Haiz. I do not like to compare myself with others. But i really hope others don't put me together with them and judge me.. Till i really feel myself sux at it... Sux at studying.. :(

With each paper I have had, it really drag down my morale.. Haiz..

Uni is too tough for me. It didn't manage to motivate me to go sch every morning to grab the knowledge learnt. Like how a school shud be.  But Mostly, i go for the degree paper. And i keep telling myself, awhile more to go...

Anyway, I have had a good run in ages!!! 5km plus. That is something !! I didn't know i can go that far too..
But tired..

I'm tired at almost everything...

Profile List Corrupted

Go to Regedit.

Local machine >> Software >> Microsoft >> Windows NT >> Current Version >> Profile List 

Look for the two longest de. The longest one with the .bak is the "old" profile that you want to save cos all the data is inside. The longest one without .bak is the one generated by your system cos it has detected that your profile has been corrupted.  

1. Rename the longest one without .bak with old
2. Remove .bak from the longest one with .bak

3. Put both "0" for the State and RefCount.

Restart com and see if it happens again.

Hahahaa...For my future usage :)