First post of 2014 ~

It is just ten more days to sch restarting soon.. SOmehow, a little phobia grew in me. That I am afraid to study things that i do not understand. Haiz. But as time passes, I am proud of myself to be able to come this far :)

Year 2013 passed. This is was better than the last. I did grow up alot too. I made rough decisions on uni studies. Managed to do planning on my financial scheme aka bank loans, loans from uncle.. Plus its not that easy to apply uni and all too. Not with those sudden notice that I got into Ntu or wrong information from those ignorant officers on the phone telling me different thing on my study pass and tuition grant. I was at the verge of working instead of study. I coped all of them hard. Real HARD.

But I am blessed with my family and friends around me and I am really grateful for it.. :)))

I do not have much in my 2014 resolutions.

1. Study better.
2. Save more money.
3. Exercise more.
4. Help myself more before I can help others.
5. Lessen the burden over my shoulders by not keeping them stiff always.
6. Learn to breathe.
7. Cry lesser.
8. Care-free.
9. Love harder.
10. Be stronger. Be better. (in person)
11. Plan ahead after uni (What I want to do?)
12. Plan my early savings ahead. (Business is not my thing.. :( )
13. Call mum and other aunties more often.

Let's do this!!!  :)

Spoken and unspoken words

Have u ever felt like u can stone at one spot for a very very long time?

Thats how i felt just awhile ago. After that awful disagreement I have had always with either myself or the other person. It hurts deep when someone so close to you cannot seem to understand. We both saying the different thing on the phone. Till I do not know how to explain anymore. Why? You are someone that supposed to understand by now. It was always so pain.

I stood there motionless when i saw my polka dot fish that i have brought back laying dead. I killed it accidentally when i was pouring out other fishes. I don't what to say. What to feel...

R.I.P polka dot.
I am really really sorry. I am so so sorry !!! :(

Why every time when things go so smooth spoilt always by spoken and unspoken words?

I really did enjoyed myself so much at the pasir ris farm and walk..

I lose it too.. I will be crazy one day.. thinking what feeling i shud be feeling.

HOW TO INSERT PAGE NUMBERS STARTING FROM SPECIFIC PAGE !!!!

HOW TO INSERT PAGE NUMBERS STARTING FROM SPECIFIC PAGE !!!!

1.  Insert page break STARTING from the specific page you want to start number. 

2. Insert page number. (The pages should be numbered and the above "section" also will be numbered)

2. "Uncheck link to previous" (Design section under Header and Footer tab) at the bottom of the last page of the section that you DO NOT WANT THEM TO BE NUMBERED.   

3. The  last step will be "delete" the page number at the bottom of the LAST PAGE OF THAT SECTION.   

In the end, you should see that only the specific pages to be page-numbered 1 and onwards and not the section above (Cover Page, Table of Content, etc...) to be numbered !!!!

Refer to the youtube video above to see if my steps are wrong. 

9-10-2013

Uni update....

It has been two months i started uni... They keep saying it's far more different and I prepared my mindset where things will b much more like A levels... Getting hard to cope and catch up and all..

It was tiring.. Energy draining. With every paper i took.. After the paper, I feel my brain and body energy was drained away. Uni is really tough. I have had my Continual Assessments (CA) and left with one more to go. It was my first time having exams at uni. Their test seems to be small but their weightage is far too much to screw with the paper. :(  All so tough !!! :(

Or is it that i had it too easy for my past education systems at Malaysia and Singapore?

Two killer modules for me. Thermodynamics and Mechanics of Materials.. While both my friends seem to be coping okay with it. I find it really too tough for me to understand. It was stressed for me when both of them aim to graduate with a good degree ( upper class cert ) . As for how I am doing now, I think i can only pass with a normal degree. Haiz. I do not like to compare myself with others. But i really hope others don't put me together with them and judge me.. Till i really feel myself sux at it... Sux at studying.. :(

With each paper I have had, it really drag down my morale.. Haiz..

Uni is too tough for me. It didn't manage to motivate me to go sch every morning to grab the knowledge learnt. Like how a school shud be.  But Mostly, i go for the degree paper. And i keep telling myself, awhile more to go...

Anyway, I have had a good run in ages!!! 5km plus. That is something !! I didn't know i can go that far too..
But tired..

I'm tired at almost everything...

Profile List Corrupted

Go to Regedit.

Local machine >> Software >> Microsoft >> Windows NT >> Current Version >> Profile List 

Look for the two longest de. The longest one with the .bak is the "old" profile that you want to save cos all the data is inside. The longest one without .bak is the one generated by your system cos it has detected that your profile has been corrupted.  

1. Rename the longest one without .bak with old
2. Remove .bak from the longest one with .bak

3. Put both "0" for the State and RefCount.

Restart com and see if it happens again.

Hahahaa...For my future usage :) 

Getting Lost somewhere ~

The places where i wanna go ~

Tunnel of Love, Ukraine 

I love the green so much so much :) 

One of the world largest mirror, Bolivia. OMG the sky and the clouds !! 

Wisteria Flower Tunnel in Japan! Japan!! =D

Bamboo Forest, Japan 

Street in Bonn, Germany. I would love the night walks, man...

with my someone i like in future, maybe :) 

Cooling weather and Relax day at home :)

I super love today's weather ... It felt like the highlands ~ Like Cameron Highlands. Very cooling :)

While i woke up from my nap and the smell of my hair when some hair brushed over, i felt a tinge of happiness. I have always love the smell of my hair.. especially during these weather where i would like to let them down  :)

Things were rather harsh for the past two months right after I graduated from Sp. The decision making and planning for university. The one-night-life-time decision i made when i chose NTU which i deemed too late for them to have me enrolled in when i developed some excitement to go into Chemical Engineering in SIT. The SIT modules were somewhat i prefer or like as compared to Materials Engineering in NTU.

And whatever that i have went through during A levels. Haunts me and teases my low self-confidence. But i have not much option. But anyway, this is it. I'm going to study in NTU in another three weeks. Financial matters are some sort of settled and planned. So i guess i will go with the flow now.

Its good that i lose my job in some sense so that i could rest at home or hang out with my friends now :)
I am not someone who prefer long holidays. Not someone who likes to be lazy. Haha..

Recently, the word " Friendship" was being debated among my close ones too. Haiz. I wouldn't want to comment much but in the end. Different people hold different belief and meaning in this, I guess.

Let's have a cup of Meiji milk and chill for now, shall we?  ;)