hmm. . exams coming, holidays going . . .

Hmm . holidays ending soon D:

A whole new learning lay ahead for me to step into. . A tiring one. .

It's hard to learn how to enjoy your studies. . I keep encouraging myself to Accept and Absorb.

I can do it !!!

Money matters can rest as for now. But i still feel not really secure. . Hmmm . . I keep telling myself, the purpose and objectives i am here now. .To study and not to find work and money ==

Study well now. Earn more later. No matter how hard. I must preserve !!!

Phew . .back didnt really attacked me cruelly these days. . touchwood*

Let's look forward of what i am going to become =)

And i shall visit this blog post again, reminiscing sweet bitter colorful . . wonderful memories of what i have went through . .

Sam's coming. .Hmmm. . One year plus eh? LOL

covet

Miss you, Hong Ling ...

It has been really long. . . i missed someone this much. Tears of joy . . Tears of yearning . . Yearning here, what i mean is just to be with her . . for a while...

She is someone . .

who is able to motivate me to go on. . to continue putting in effort..

who is able to make me smile and laugh all day long . .

who i can just keep complaining and complaining even the tiniest little thing without even feeling guilty and all . .

who gives out the summer feeling . . warmth ...

who is able to give out happiness radiantly. .

After knowing her, making people happy like how she makes me, is somehow my aim everyday ... ^^

You can just be happy when with her. .

I sound like I really like her alot.. LOL !!!

But she is , just Hong Ling, my best friend. She is my princess . . LOL

She is the closest to me, when we're in junior college..

We didn't know each for long. . Less than 3 years.. Time flies !!!

I missed her alot. Like Alot. I didnt know i will tear when i thought of her inside the train earlier. Really scared that i will tear in front of her... She would want to see me smile =)

But Hong Ling... After you left, a lot of things happen =(

I grow up alot in this period. See things different. Somehow, the positive feeling i used to liberate out, getting harder to. It was easier before . .

I depended too much on others to be happy... I missed the feeling where the radiant and cheerful feeling that i can felt them radiated inside me . . Very true to myself. Very real. Very pure.

Ah. . . I feel good when i always travel alone back to clementi..It is nice to have your good and bad memories played out and get reflected on them.

" Someone told me i should caution when it comes to love . . ."

"I did . . "

" I love you. .and that's all i really know. . "

It was really nice during your silent and peaceful walk home ^^

Singing away . . Searching for the moon . . Basically , a good rest besides sleeping .

A break from the outside where you can just be you . . =)

Or having a comfortable chat with someone while you enjoying the night. .

It's where you feel distance is not definable . . You feel close. .But you are far from me . But sometimes, you are just one inch from that person, you feel so much further away . .

I want to become a better person . . .

haiz...

Stirring up troubles and complains is not in my nature. . But you have struck onto my nerves and i am just doing my part ...

I dont want to lose 25% of my dip plus module just because of these thoughtless group members.

I tried contacting you all. .tried communicating... i didnt even complain getting most of the work... And yet you didn't even update me about the upcoming presentation on the friday of the mst week!!!!

I didnt even get a glimpse of the full report. And how am i supposed to prepare ???

The thing is... you all really didn't let me know !!! I have to get to know from the teacher.. and members from another group. And it was only like 5 minutes ago...

Don't abuse my kindness...

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HAizz.... i can't sleep !!! My whole body like very itchy.. and i dont think i got eat any wrong thing...

But i am lying and resting now... didnt do much thing today...

It's freaking contradicting.. I am trying hard to find the reason why my emotion and feelings can all of the sudden go so down to the bottomless sea.. My tears can flow out so easily. . whenever my heart feel the signal and all... BUT who says you need a reason to cry ? Who says you need a reason to be happy?

Thanks for listening... Glad you were there to listen.. I really appreciate it... Thanks for your understanding..By the way, no one really knows about this...

I would still prefer liberating a positive energy, making ppl's day great and all ^^ And it has been long since i have been able to do all that .. I've been losing myself lately due to school's stress...financial's stress and all... let's find 'me" back ! XD

It was basically not one of my rule or anything...LOL

It is just that ...

When you be the one to wait for the one to go, For me, it feels rather comfortable or secure to wait him or her till she disappear from your sight... I seldom leave ppl...

At the same time, the one who waits. .gets to say " Please, don't leave me...."

At the same time, it is also one blissful feeling...to wait

I don't know how other ppl would feel to see someone leave. i don't know how you would feel to see me leave ... A good/ secure feeling ? or a being left behind feeling? or a blissful one?

I am thinking too much... XD

I should be thankful to have someone watching me go first ... ^^

i dun like it

faster recover =(

Good Song . . at the correct moment to lift your spirits UP!!

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
« You'll never reach it »

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

I can do it !!!

Nearly stranded at kallang ==

It was really close just now ==

MY brother took us for dinner at Kallang. .And it was really an awesome one !

I asked huiwen to hold onto my bag while i went and carried my nephew.. She left it at the stroller !!!! The taxi was not able to take up all of us. My nephews are growing big =)

So , my sister and I decided to take MRT back to Clementi. When the taxi left, it was just too late that i realized my bag was not at my sister's hand =___=

Huiwen and i chased the taxi until i stopped to give a call to my brother... He told me it was too late as they were nearing highway..

What an experience.. What if i have left my phone inside my bag as well?

Geylang road man.... ==

In the end, we ended up inside Singapore's most ex taxi, " Crissler" I am not sure bout the spelling. . It was hard to get one that time. And a black classy taxi just stopped beside us... I was not paying attention while i am waving for one ==

$20.40 !!!! It should be less than $15!!! @.@

HOLIDAYS :D

Holidays !!! Finally !!!

It was tired to have so much inputs every week . . I learnt new things almost everyday.

It was tiring to be exposed to and accepting the unknowns for every week. But learning is fun =)

Stress is something that builds me. The accomplishments that comes with it definitely feels better !!!

Hmm . . should i offer to take care bb three times a week during my holidays? Haiz. .f my soft heart. Seeing them stressed and hot-tempered over small cute things that Boon Kai do. Better not. I am not coping well with my studies. Not confident enough T__T

Let's study well this holiday ^^

My back feels much much better. .I can never sit and walk so straight and comfortable before this. I thought it was normal . LOL . Guessed i have to thank them =) You guys helped alot, really . .

I don't want to stress over my financial difficulties. I'll take things one at the time. Good that i can cover my current semester's fees. . Glad that mum sounded to help out. Can't really let her know why that i can't manage when i should be able to. . and show her my account figures !!! LOL

I love you, mum ... I'll do a good job for your grand birthday dinner !

I dont like to make choices. But some choices MUST be made. AND I HAVE TO BE FIRM !!!!

You can do it, sw. You are stronger than this !!!

Sorry

My last sorry.