Birthday 2009 ^^

Time flies. . . I turned into 19 finally. My last teenage year ^^

What can i say. . .Although it is the first time i'm celebrating my birthday during my exams, it is not a bad one afterall. Thing's slowing down now as my exams will be finally be over next week. Physic will be my last paper. It is scary when i come to think that the next paper would be A level. Ah. . .what an energy-draining month. . No more coffee for a few more weeks ^^

I am very happy this year. Everyone seems to remember ^^ I received alot of wishes from my friends and my facebook was flooded with birthday messages too. . Some of my friends from Ipoh even called me. I am really touched. Thanks guys. . Thanks for giving me energy when i need them so much especially during this period ^^

I received alot this year. Too much i would say . .

my birthday cake ^^ sinfully delicious

can see the layers? the first layer is chocolate mousse, followed by cake and

biscuit layer dipped in latte.

my bro bought me this ^^

my sister's

kuma chan that i received yesterday from HL

I don't remember tellling her that i always wanted a bear.

I don't know how she knew. I'm kinda touched.^^

i had honey dew pudding when the clock stricked 12am last saturday.

My beloved brother brought us to a korean restaurant yesterday to have a feast. Look at the table. It's really full just like in the korean movies. The food was exotic ! Bimimbap. . I love the kimchi soup with rice ^^ the bulgogi was delicious too ( the one inside the grill ). We had some glutinous rice wine before we left. Just 7% alcohol content. It's soothing. . aromatic and sweet. Just too nice XD I'm very happy as all of us enjoyed it. It has been a long time since i had such fulfilling meal ^^

I am just one lucky and blissful child eh? Both of my brothers really take good care of us since we're born. A kind of family that everyone would wish for.

I don't know. But is it because of the simplistic thinking of mine that everyone seems want to take advantage of it ?Just how can they wonder that i can be that "understanding and tolerating". Just how can they think that i am really that "kind". An "ok" to everything. When i really say it is fine, have you ever considered it really was?

And yet, i am writting all these here like a coward who doesn't really want to face them.

disgusting

Today i am . . . tired?

Dead tired

Is all when you don't know that you are ;

Is all when you don't want to use your brain anymore ;

Is all when you don't even feel like eating ;

Is all when you don't want to answer any more questions ;

Is all when you feel like you'll collapse anytime if you keep on sitting any longer ;

Is all when you feel numb to each feeling you received ;

Is all when you don't even care to ask why or how ;

Is all when you wanted to turn and just run away ;

Is all when you wanted to have a long peace rest throughout the eternity ;

Is all when you wanted to be the most selfish person on earth ;

Is all when you wanted to say that you can't take it anymore ;

Is all when you wanted to say " I want. . . "

I'm just . . .a little. . tired, i guess.



All i want is just a big hug from you

Today i am made to realize

Ah. .Today, I have started my own study break at home already XD The official day is next monday. That means that we don't have to go to school until Prelims. I have not been feeling well for the past few days ^^ It's not H1N1 although it's getting serious in Singapore. The whole family is sick except Ah Man. Want to write a big word "GENG" for her already. Not a cough is heard from her although surrounded by so many bacteria XD

My brother made "steamed orange" for us.It did not taste good coz it's very bitter for we need to finish up the skin also. To my suprise, it's really effective ^^. . I cough less at night and my throat felt better. Well, things have started and this is really the last lapse of my life. What i mean is i won't be working so hard in studies after this. After A levels. But there is no gauge how hard is hard huh? I got motivated after i came across a mail sent by mum. Let's share it :

If they haven't think that they are unlucky, how dare you say you are?

If you think you are not earning enough, then what about her?

If they are not giving up, what makes you think that you have right to do so?

If you think you are working hard enough, then what is this?

If they are not afraid, why do you have to? to trivial things?!

If you think life is unfair, Is it fair to her?

Aih. . . sorry for such an emotional post. It's just that i have been hoping for more and complaning alot ^^ and this makes me realised it.

My life motto will be : "Life is not just to maximise your own pleasure, live to make other's live as pleasurable as well"

Let's smile more and look into the brighter side, appreciating what you already have and live life the fullest ^^

i think i will be disconected from the world for a while ^^ Till then

stay strong