The transition from day to night time.

I didn't like it since i was young. I wonder why. 

To me 10 years ago

This is my 10th year in Singapore.

To the me 10 years back,

- It is really okay to be hurt, and sad. Things will ultimately go the way it should be. If that person is meant to stay, she will. So be thankful that she has taught you precious lessons in life and grow up with you within the short and fast phrase of teenage.

- Please go back for your grandmother's birthday dinner. It has became a regret now that you didn't. Just because of the long and tiring journey. The emptiness of the house that attracts. Just don't. Please go back to her as it was the last birthday that she's had. That last phone call, please treasure it. I miss you so much, ah Po.

- Please call back to ah di once in a while. No matter what. You will regret it badly in the future. Trust me. Make it an effort to bring him to Singapore for a visit. You have the ability to do so. Don't belittle yourself as a 17 year old girl. You are someone bigger.

- Making mistakes is fine. Just continue to pick up yourself and walk your journey. Continue to make beautiful mistakes and make your life as beautiful and colorful. After this, you will definitely, enjoy your Poly days. You no longer have to sit alone during lectures and tutorials anymore.

- Continue to take care of your sister. Take care of her more. Mend her wounds. As much as you can. That she has accumulated ever since. Guide her more. It's your job. You are her sister. Till she is capable by herself, having another person to take over your job, it is YOUR JOB.

- Stay as hard as you can. And Enjoy study alot alot. You will appreciate the essence out of it.

- Reach out more to people. They are not as bad as you thought. Some people meant to stay ; some just aren't.


Life is not that bad 10 years later. Stay happy :)

:(

Too tired these days. Till no words can be fathomed ; Till no feelings can be formed. What is it that I am tired of?

Why is it so funny or weird? Tears flow easier than laughter.

Did I had it that bad? What is it?

 I am so confused and unsure.

Help.

haiz :( 

why??

if you were there for the critical moments
if you let me feel your efforts and not just words - if was never as 'us' from your mouth to me. Why.

Why?????????????????????

I guess I will crumble at the slightest give-away. Be it the necklace. The watch. The laminated picture of us. And even the date of my own convocation last year. And many more.

So, yes. Keep it all away. Lock it all up.

Before I crumbled down all the way again. Yeah, tears do still flow.

Why?????????????????

夜空中最亮的星

Stay strong! 

No regrets.